This question searches very deeply into the essence of human life and perhaps all existence. Maybe all that really exists are feelings, and that is the answer we overlook when we ask: What is the very nature of LOVE, and what and where does it fit into what we identify as feelings?

I just took a day breather to clear myself of all of my preconceived ideas about LOVE in order to discover the clues needed to help come up with the answer we are looking for. Is LOVE a feeling is one very heavy and important question. To be or not to be once said will never go away. To be or not to be LOVE seems appropriate here. Thanks again to William Shakespeare.

Anger and fear are feelings. When we experience anger or fear LOVE is missing or hidden. Anger is caused by a thought such as "You have hurt me". Fear is caused by a thought such as "I am no good or incompetent". If feelings are caused by thoughts, what are the thoughts that cause LOVE? There are none. It is the absence of thought that allows LOVE to be experienced and expressed. LOVE is our essence and the core of our existence. It need not be identified because when we experience LOVE we know it, relish and bask in it. It cannot be described, only shared and experienced.

I have spent my entire life, a prisoner so to speak, of my poisonous and stressful feelings, searching to discover why I am here and who I am. All I ever really wanted was to be free of those feelings. Make them go away. The most constructive thing that I could have done for myself was to embrace those hurtful, stressful poisonous feelings so that I could identify the thoughts that cause them. "Going where Angels fear to tread (embracing hurtful feelings), was the last place I dared go. Now it is the first place I go! It is that dark corner of my being where all of my ghosts and monsters hide. They had been safe in the knowledge that I would never open the door and let the light in that will destroy them and free me from them forever.

My prime motivation in my journey in this world is now to share in and bask in

LOVE. It is who I have been looking for. It is who I am. The stuff we are all made of. The force field of all that is, was, or ever will be. This makes sense to me. I can now choose to stop struggling and surrender. Give up all my worldly wants, sit back and simply enjoy being LOVE.

No more worlds to conquer or crazy ambitions to distract me from enjoying who I really am. No more fear of death because as I surrender to who I am, I become less of who I am not. Namely all of the distractions that are in my way of experiencing, basking in and sharing LOVE. When I am no longer what I now perceive as Charlie of the Earth dimension, I will meld back into the force field of LOVE.

It is where I came from, where I will always go back to and the essence of my eternal soul. It is stupid to fear the concept of death, (experiencing non-existence), because it is the freedom from all that is holding me back from enjoying being who I really am.

No more seeking.

Just finding what is already there. Letting go of everything in my way that is not Love. Those memories, ideas, thoughts and beliefs that I hold onto that cause me to experience those feelings that are not LOVE but are fear, concern, hate, resentment, bitterness, anger, hopelessness, vindictiveness, vengefulness, despair, anxiety, depression and all of the other stressful feelings that cause most of the mental and physical disease I will ever experience.

To be and experience the purist of LOVE, 'Who I really am', I must notice and let go of the thought terrorists that cause and sustain my stressful feelings.

I can either change my focus from becoming more of what I am not, to noticing and letting go of my thought terrorists, or I will experience LOVE at a lower frequency obstructed by what I am not, namely those thoughts that cause feelings that are not LOVE. LOVE is all that exists and the essence of what I have been forever searching for so I can be who I really am, have a joyous mind-set and a radiant contagious SMILE.

And please, decide to LOVE everything about poker, the ups, the downs, the wins and the losses, or give it up.

"Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it" -William Arthur Ward

"Be grateful for and EMBRACE every feeling or you will never free yourself from your stressful and painful ones. You are what you feel! You cannot free yourself from stressful feelings until you embrace them and identify the thoughts you hold onto that cause them. You can now do something about those thoughts. Notice those thoughts and Let Go of Them using the Ten Commitments to help, or use any other way that works for you. WHEN YOU LET GO OF THOSE POISONIOUS THOUGHTS your stressful feelings will quietly go away." -Charlie Shoten